Monday, September 26, 2011

a letter to my son


I am writing this letter to let you know that in the short 10 days I've known you, you have shown more strength than most adults exhibit in a lifetime. You are the toughest little boy I have ever known. You have the most amazing disposition and dimples that just melt my heart. I want you to know these things because by the grace of God, you won't remember how you spent your first few weeks of life and for this I'm grateful.

On your sixth day of life we checked into the emergency room because you started running a high fever. And we've spent the last 5 days in the children's hospital as you're treated for what we now know is bacterial meningitis.

You have had more needles in you than I care to think about. You've undergone pain, discomfort, fevers, and what I can only imagine is sheer misery and you've barely even uttered a cry. You smile and you coo. You take it as if you understand why it's all happening as your mommy sits outside the door and cries harder than she ever thought possible. You are stronger than me, of this I'm sure.

We have 9 days left to go in this journey and then we get to go home and start our life together as a family of four. I will treasure every single one of those days through the eyes of a mother who now knows what it's like to truly rely on God to get you from one day to the next. You are not healthy yet but you get a little closer every day and with your spirit I know it's only a matter of time.

You have blessed our lives so greatly in such a small time. You are our little miracle, and I am so grateful that I get to be your mommy.


Sara Brown said...

Jenn -- What a perfect letter to your perfect boy. Please know that I'm thinking of you and your family. I can't wait until you post your "We're home!" blog -- hopefully sooner rather than later.

Jenn said...

Oh wow, what a little fighter. That is so unbelievably scary, Jenn. I can only imagine the emotions you are going through and of course at the time when your hormones would be going crazy anyways in even the most perfect of circumstances. You are a wonderful mommy, Jen and little Davis is already so lucky to have you and I know he will be fine soon and join his big sis at home! Much love to your family! Jenn

Michelle said...

Jenn, This is a such a beautiful letter to your beautiful baby boy. He is very lucky to have a mommy who cares so much and loves him so much. Many prayers to you and your family and hope that these next 9 days go by swiftly for you. ~Michelle

Kristin said...

Thanks for making me cry at work. I love you both (and Matt and Madelyn too). xoxoxoxo See you soon.

Jessi said...

Prayers to you and your little boy. What a precious letter to Davis. Hope he well and home soon.

Alyse said...

Prayers for you and your sweet family. What a precious little fighter boy!
p.s. I am Kristin's cousin and found your blog through her :)

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